Its been a year, almost..

Almost one year on. I have actually managed to complete my first year as a Doctor without anything too awful happening. Learnt an INCREDIBLE amount along the way. Surprisingly the biggest increase in knowledge didn't occur in the realms of my academic intelligence but in the emotional quotient. I wouldn't say that I could work as a diplomat, that has never been my forte but I sure have learnt some of the tricks of the trade which has served to be far more useful than my medical knowledge at times and watching other people's failure to be diplomatic has taught me an immense amount about the pettiness of the (adult) work place.

I guess I knew it would happen because everyone said it would but am far more confident at prescribing, sticking needles into random pools of fluid in internal cavities (although that ascitic tap last night was a little slapdash even by Peruvian standards. It did not help that the patient, encaphalopathic as he was kept saying "ow so painful, so painful thank you you are so kind what are you doing" like a broken record) and generally I guess, being a Doctor! Hell I even dealt with a guy having a seizure losing cardiac output whilst I was in no mans land in CT limbo and no one came to help! When I think back to the pants full of poo/flapping in the wind point I was at last year I have come far!

I am bored again. going for a run in the rain. post soon...probably when I shit my pants being the SHOh-no on a very busy obs and gynae firm in the home counties. Learn quick die faster or something like that.

I also am at that stage where i fail to understand why certain specialities can't do basic things we learn at this stage, so why an Obs and Gynae team (surgical team) that had a patient with shortness of breath and pleural effusions can't tap it themselves and needs a medical team to come over and advise/do..why gain all that knowledge to not do anything in future? Or do we just get better at passing the buck? Again I presume all will be revealed as I head further into the deep dark depths of this wobbly NHS land.

Interestingly we didn't realise just how much the NHS would be shaken up post coalition and what it would mean, never have Doctors been so worried about the stability of their jobs but even they are fearing the cuts. Its scary times ahead but at the same time we may end up being part of another large revolution just like when the NHS started.

Looks that don't work in Surbubia. no 3

I've only just started this up after my third time trialling my own choice of clothes in Middlesex. The reason I am doing this is because I need a refrain from the drain that is work and I need to be politically apathetic to avoid GMC investigation etc. which I am fine with as the real world is just too depressing.

Look no 1 that didn't work was the jungle dress which will go up later. Look no 2 was the transparent culottes. But the 3rd look that really didn't get off to a good start this morning going to a car boot sale was the one to the left. As my kind friend who shall remain nameless said

"I'm sure it worked in your head but on the street you just look like a petty whore". Thanks babe.